LEAVE, PLEASE 2020-2021
collaboration with Mia Skrbinac
We decided to document our first date while getting to now each other on a road trip in Romania in 2020.
Then we continued the documentation on the second date which happened in 2021 in Slovenia passing to Poland.
In 2021 the documentation was more intense as we were in the process of recovery from similar-topic traumatic events and attending different types of therapy sessions. In this context, each other's body and triggers acted or reacted against the process, the space, the moods, the present landscape, against us and who we could be without the trauma.
Alongside analog photographs, which some can act in relation to each other or as triptychs on movement and interaction, we wrote free-form poetry and random thoughts to help us get more understanding of the situation and our relation.
All that weight needs to be released. Life feels impossible to live
without washing off what it has became the control of our actions. But is
it really the past to blame or is it just us addicted to that danger? Too
afraid to be seen without the accumulations that became part of our
identity. Us becoming the makers of a new one. Too safe to let go, too
damaged to trust. "We could kill each other", I said as an excuse. An
empty shell, hanging in there. So pass me the soap and leave, please. I
need to try to make myself cry.
i walk with them
my grandpa’s violence and grandma’s anger
when we walk they never leave
me she said you're like me
your father’s hands and mom’s eyes
your upper lip is like hers,
your lower one like his
but your mouth – words are mine,
fiery and fast like
anger that never leaves
me i never thought i was like her
until those two knives
were crossed at my throat
and i meet my grandma’s anger
and my grandpa’s will to kill
FILMMAKERS OF OUR GENERATION 2017-2020
Filmmakers of our Generation showcases a series of analog portraits of the filmmakers and artists I had the chance to cross paths with and which are challenging the world we live in trough their work.